Yesterday, the country celebrated the birth of one of its national heroes, Andres Bonifacio. A man who has fought a damn, good battle. I couldn't pick a better date to write this story than today.
I was born to lose, i think. I find myself realizing life has more meaning when i lose. I have a weird notion that losing is the greatest thing that can happen to man. Apparently now, i start to wonder how can someone who has traveled the most extreme of places around the Philippines and Asia and has experienced vastly the best and worst anyone could ever imagine, would ponder about losing yet again?
In one of my trips to Northern Samar, i find myself bruised literally, as i try to push myself to the limits crossing the gushing waters near the infamous Biri Rocks. I lost it and almost faded away. Thankfully, i was left with just memories that could only make me question how many more loses do i have to take before i learn.
My trips do have failures in it; Checking in at a highly overrated super expensive hotel, missing my flights, staying late and waking up with a massive hang-over, scrapping one destination i was hoping to visit just because i wasn't paying attention with the time i have left, etc. And i always gravitate to the same mistakes. Maybe, i was born to travel with mishaps Maybe, i just don't want to learn.
A wise man whom i look up to, asked me what do i do now that i was pushed to the limits and failed miserably. I said, with a convinced look on my face that i will never again put myself in the situation where i know i will fail. Inherently, i think i just dropped an answer of a sore loser. He said with optimism that from now on...i need to learn to fight it. Next time, i can fight it.
The days thereafter were days of contemplation.
Today, marks the day where i have learned to fight it all. I wasn't re-born in Varanasi for nothing. After my trip to India, i find myself more attuned with my inner self. I am more attracted to peace and harmony, than to troubles and worries. I have learned to fight but also to let go and turn my back when it's enough. I have learned to become better as a person by becoming more kind to those who cannot understand. I have learned to become more patient to those whom i wish happiness and success. I have learned to fight for what i believe in but also accept the fate the universe wants to tell me. I have learned to realize that life is a million more opportunities and should not be shattered with just one failed attempt. I think I have learned.
My journey isn't over yet. I will keep living. And sometimes, i might fail again. But now i know better. Now, i have learned.
Andres Bonifacio, you inspired me today to become strong not only for myself but also for the people who've put their trust in me.
I am the author of Pinoy Boy Journals. I am a fighter.
Oh. Whatta inspiring post you got here. Yes, I agree, YOU are a fighter. I am a fighter. EVERYBODY is a fighter.
ReplyDeleteFailures, whether you like it or not, are inevitable. Lost of a job, missed flights or just sheer stupidity happens to test the limit of our souls.
I hope everybody can read this. And be inspired.
Thanks Hoobert! Life is full of that and so much more. What we can do is to keep fighting, and make sure next time we will try our best not to fall down again. But if it happens again, we know better. Cheers!
Deletemukhang nakakatakot nga yung nangyari sayo sa Biri rocks based on your description, but that's what we do, we have to keep standing up no matter how many times we fall. I can relate, sometimes it frustrates me whenever I feel that I'm only good on a certain level. keep fighting jerik! great post.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ed! Yup! It was a scary experience, and i thought i was going to die for a second. Good thing, God sees i have so much more to explore and inspire people with what i love doing. Ingat Bai!
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ReplyDeleteThe gods instructed Pharroh to give the Jews all that gold as temptation, and it worked.
So unlike Pharroh, but an effective corruptor which was responsible for the 40 years of warmongering under Joshua. This caused another host of problems to befall the Jewsish people as well.
Even as peasant farmers we could be lulled::Good weather, bountiful harvests, etc. This is what old-world preachers were good for.
This stereotypical preacher had classic preaching styles:::Loud, damnation-fueled teachings. Contrast to today, preachers who are lulling the Damned into cruise control. The old-world style was important to snap people out of complacency. Unfortunately, in today's enviornment people consider this style insulting, and they lose a precious message designed for the favored of yesterday.
I speak of how The Beast has changed the country and the world with Californication. Whereas 20 years ago the young women used to ridicule homosexuality now they find it acceptable. Come the next generation the norm may be experimentation.
Not in the South. The Southern man has retained even more time, consider homosexuality an abomination and reject bi-racial unions, rightfully so. Unfortunately, much like the immigration issue the gods use hated to accomplish the region's value system among the masses.
Understand the Matrix/reality duality::::For every issue the gods have their REAL reason for creating an issue. In the case of the SOuthern man it is because they have the conbination of favor/disfavor which allows them to maintain the god's conservative stance embraced by humanity throughout time.
Of course the giveback in the SOuth would be elements like overconsumption of alcohol, abandoning the gods for NASCAR Sunday, tattoo freaks violating the body the gods gave them in their image. Pure favor it is not:::What they gain in a decent value system they lose elsewhere. The fact the gods preyed upon the Southern man with a drug-driven, junkie-laden brilliant regional rock bands is a bad sign. The perpetual nature of country music is another:::Rock is dead. Too many of these rednecks live in ignornace and feel their perpetual music genre is a sign of favor. Quite the opposite is true.
I have repeatedly illustrated the frequency of "reverse positioning". This is yet another.
The United States is a dumping ground for the disfavored. THis was how it was used during European immigration, this is how it is used today.
The Japanese Earthquake/Tsunami of 3/11/11 was actuslly a good sign for the people. Alarming because it came decades after their most recent admitted atrocities during WWII, at least they will experience corrective punishment, whereas the United States won't be as lucky.
Russia too enjoyed corrective punishment for the 1980 invasion of Afghanistan.
THere is something about this country. Interferring/injuring the Afghan people incurrs he god's wrath. It cost the SOviets their protection of communism. Now the gods have leveled the playing field among the last few white peoples who still enjoyed it on their way to a homogeneous global enviornment. If I am right about the United States we won't be as lucky. When we go down it will be for good, and there will be no recovery.
Yes, the clone host fake politicians have been plannign for this for decades. Ronald Reagan turned a $1 trillion Federal debt into $6 trillion at the end of his Administration. Much like W in Iraq, this served to terminate the favor of a group of people. Reagan just didn't have to do it with violence as W did, but he did do it against white people, which says something.