It's been one thousand four hundred sixty days, Guimaras
ULTIMATE BLOG CARNIVAL REWIND:
My love, it’s been four years since my eyes met yours. I can still vividly remember the first time I laid my eyes on your splendor, it was unforgettable. I remember how my hours were spent in pure amazement for I haven’t seen such a beautiful sight in this life of mine. I arrived not later than an hour before noon on a beautiful day. The sun was shining and the cool breeze of the ocean greeted me with a warm embrace. I sat on your lap, still, figuring out how I want to spend the rest of my life. Soon, I ordered for a delicious feast that didn't cost much. I finally found myself enjoying a plate of happiness and delight with you. It’s been three hundred thirty six hours of agony and pain for me before this...
The rest of the days I spent with you were days of uncertainty. I didn't know where the wind will take me. But i took it all in, with much courage and wisdom. I asked you a number of times about my purpose in life and you answered to me in silence. I could remember myself strolling along this beautiful shore, trying to catch the changing tides. I couldn't understand how tides can change so soon.
I often ask myself now, how destiny can play a trick on me, on us. Why do we have to part? I couldn’t forget you, you see. You’ve always been here, one that fills up my memory.
I met the smiles of many of those who live in simplicity. The people whose faces soon start to fade away now. I remembered them calling me once in a while, if there was anything I needed. They who have shown nothing but kindness to me, they still have visible images in my memory. I regret the days that I didn't get to spend a lifetime with them. I really do.
The days I spent where days of solitude. I remember walking the steps leading to the Virgin Mary. I prayed in isolation for a life well-lived. I often recall asking for something I couldn't figure out myself. I remember asking why life can be sometimes too difficult? I asked Her how much more pain can a man take? If it’s love that’s breaking my heart, why let it happen? I asked so many things that later on I lost count. I slept wondering and hoping.
Then, there were days of which I don’t think this lifetime could afford me to forget. I reminisce the days I spent with you, touching yours as I could feel your warmth, my lips as it met yours. If I could paint a picture of you now; it would be where little kids are smiling, the ocean dancing, the wind floating and the sunset... ahh the sunset!
It was nearing dusk this time. I remember crossing my legs and sitting like a little boy on the edge of a beautiful mountain that couldn’t be broken. I sat there with my eyes closed, my senses opened. I sat there for a bit, and little by little I remembered why my life is worth the sorrow. I thought about the people who made me feel special. I remembered ours, and how it was such a beautiful beginning. I drew a picture in my head of a long road with many paths, waiting for us. I thought about other places and how they too shook the hell out of me. I looked for more things that could paint a smile in my heart, and sooner than i thought, my life began again. I slowly opened the greatest sense to man and chanced upon a magical moment. I will never forget, this moment.
It’s been one thousand four hundred sixty days of waiting for me. I couldn't let myself run away from you again, My Love. If I had the moment to leave this all behind me, I would. I couldn't any more live another day, another hour, another minute apart from you. The days I spend here far away from your embrace were days of longing, of yearning, of desire.
You have to believe me that even though I’ve traveled miles away from you, and have met others, I still couldn't see myself having a far more great love than what I have for you. I remember the days that you were with me, and those days I want to feel like they’re just yesterday. I hope my letter reaches you in time before someone else takes my place in your heart. If someone else catches your heart more than I, hush for it's been forgiven. I still have a lifetime ahead of me to find out, if ever I should forget you, will I then be able to live the days of my life? I don’t want another you, you see.
I’ll see you soon, my love. Oh, how much i miss you. It was you who made me whole again. I couldn't be blessed more knowing this beautiful life of mine is worth living, because I found you.
Remembering you, always!
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Guimaras, you've shown me how much more beautiful life is. If people ask me, will I ever forget about you? I will speak of silence and truth, for you've never left my memory, ours will never be forgotten.